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Sorry this is so long but I really need help. I know I’m going to get a lot of hate for this, for being a “disrespectful, angsty teenager,” but I need to get this out of my system and hopefully get some advice as well.
I’m 16, and I am convinced that my mother is the worst person in the world. She is a disgusting excuse of a human being. I know, how horrible that I’m speaking of my mother this way but hear me out, here’s why I hate her:
1. She is sexist. She says that women can’t survive without men in their lives because she thinks men are supposed to provide you all the money you need. She left my dad (who is twice her age) after taking all his money and moved onto the next old and desperate rich man. She thinks women are only there to cook and clean. She lets my brother sit around the house playing video games but she makes me clean all the time and her reason “because you’re a girl and that’s what girls do.”
2. She is racist. She hates everyone except her own race (Asian). Most of my friends are from other countries, which she always gives me sh!t for. My best friend is black and my mother says not to be friends with her because she is probably a gang-affiliated thief with AIDS. She says all black people have AIDS. She says all white people are arrogant and stuck up. I’m half white so she says I should be ashamed of myself.
3. She thinks I’m not normal and she’s always putting me down. I’m smart, ambitious and I’m not afraid to be myself like many other teens. But she says I’m a weird loser, and that I should be like a “normal girl.” A normal girl, according to her, is one who sleeps around, dresses like a slut and wears a tonne of makeup. She constantly tells me to “go fukc a man, you need it” (yes those are her words). She uses every single name in the book on me, calling me a btich, sh!thead, etc. She tells me she hates me and she often threatens me, saying she wants to kill me simply for being me. She sometimes slaps me, punches me, kicks me, scratches and pulls my hair.
There are so many more reasons why I hate her but those are the top 3. I don’t know how to deal with this anymore. I’ve called the police on her twice when she was hitting me. Once when I was 6 (I assume nothing happened because I’m still here) and another time a few months ago. My mum cried to the police saying she was a good mother and lied about hitting me, then she called up all her friends to “testify” that she was a good mother, so they didn’t believe me. My life is a living hell because of this woman and she makes me want to kill myself. In my whole life, I have never called her a name to her face, never laid a finger on her, not even to defend myself, so I know I don’t deserve this. But lately I just can’t take it. When she talks to me I have to control myself and stop myself from lunging at her. I know that if I do, she will go crazy and probably beat me to a pulp. So now that I’ve vented, I would like to know how I can handle this efficiently and how to stay sane until I graduate next year when I’m 17. Once I graduate, I’ll leave.

I am in my second semester of my Sophomore year in college. I have people to sit with in class, people who I do community service with (I’m in a community service club) people I feel comfortable texting to go to the gym, study with, or get food with but, I don’t have any close friends. I don’t really have anyone to hang out with. On Friday and Saturday nights I usually end up studying by myself and I just feel like a complete loser. At this point everyone already found their niche and has a concrete group of close friends. I feel like unless you are really outgoing (which I am not) it is almost impossible to inject yourself into an already formed group of friends and become part of that group. I feel incredibly lonely here because i don’t have any satisfying relationships with people. Nobody really cares about me here since I am not part of anyone’s close friends group. I am just that extraneous friend that is nice to have but nobody really needs.
College is supposed to be a great experience where people figure out who they are, experiment, and have a ton of fun. I feel like I am missing out on everything that is wonderful about college. At this point, I want to graduate already and put college behind me. I wish I didn’t feel that way but I do. I am frustrated that making close friends is so hard for me. I feel like everyone else kind of makes friends naturally and has an easy time “clicking” and connecting with people. It is supposed to be fairly easy to make friends in college. I am so scared that if I can’t make close friends in college how am I going to make friends after I graduate? Making friends usually gets harder when you get older. I just wish I didn’t have to worry about all this. All my friends from High school made a ton of close friends in college and they are all having a great time. Everyone always looks forward to going back to school after breaks and dread it. What is wrong with me?

– I feel such a loser and a failure in life, because, in our swimming class, I’m the only one who couldn’t dive, I was afraid since our coach said that there’s a possibility that your face will hit the floor if you didn’t dive correctly and when I try, it ends up as water enters my nose, I’m afraid to drown or to bleed in the pool, and I also couldn’t play basketball, or drive a car, or ride a bike, people might make fun of me I mean even small children and women can do these things and also I feel like a Jack of all trades but master of none, I can do a lot of things, but I don’t think I’m good at any of them, I’m having problems about choosing a career in college since I don’t know what I really like and what I’m good at.
– I have stories which might never get published and be out in the market since I get shy, that people might laugh at my work, my stories even if they are good might be a family secret, I just fear criticism since it would hurt my feelings, there’s nothing to be excited about if works don’t get published since I wouldn’t know if they are admired or not, I just fear my stories to be ridiculed and despised by others.
– I think no one would care for me in the future since I have no siblings to be with, I’m getting tired of my parents and I wonder if other teenagers feel the same way towards their parents. I feel like being independent from them and I’m sick and tired of them because they’ve been with me for many years and it’s the same people again I’ll live with for more decades. I want other people to live with and if possible, I would want my neighbors, classmates, teachers, or relatives to be my new family so I’d feel what it’s like to be with them every day since I’ve had enough of my parents being the same people I live with for so many years. Siblings might do better since a sibling is almost as old as you and you both have the same interests with that person and you’re of the same level since parents generally are higher than their kids
– I wouldn’t get married since I stated that I get tired of people who’s always with me every day for so many years and I’m sure I’ll get tired of my wife and kids if I get married and nurture my family after about 10 years. It’s the same since people usually both go on trips, eat dinner, celebrate new year, with their parents, wife and kids and sometimes I wish I would get to do those things with other people like my cousins, or friends If it’s possible to live with them like family. No one would take care of me when I get old and worse, nobody might bury me or cry at me when I die and since I didn’t want to marry, I’ll be alone for many decades with no one to talk to and spend special occasions with.
– I’m not very rich, which is why I feel insecure being with relatives or classmates richer than me, I’ve never been to other countries, not even distant places in my country, only to places we can drive at. We can’t even afford it but other people can, which is why I feel like being the least among my family and friends. I feel like I’m out of place if I’m the only one who can’t afford something expensive but others can. Many people go to starbucks every weekends, go to world class resorts and have many expensive watches, shirts, shoes, or pants but I’m not that rich to be able to do all those things
– I don’t have any best friends, I have friends but I’m not close to them. I’m not a fan of very intimate relationships like girlfriends or best friends. I normally leave people alone if there’s nothing to do with them or any topic to discuss about. I don’t spend like every second of a day with a friend as in you’re staying with them even if you don’t do anything together. I usually leave them after a few minutes and go to other friends after there’s nothing to do with them.I just don’t spend the whole time with just one person who is very close to me, I spend a few times with lots of people and would be alone after there’s nothing to do with them.
– I usually complain about my life it’s been years since I wanted to find a way not to study and never to work. If I don’t study or work, I’ll be poor and couldn’t support myself when I grow up. I have an inconsistent behavior in life when I complain about life’s challenges and feel like quitting or failing and to persevere in order to overcome life’s obstacles. There are times when I seem to focus on the flaws of life on what makes it awful and when I focus on the beauty of life and what makes it a treasure. I guess I’m just naturally lazy and I just can’t imagine spending like 40 years at work. 10 years at school is mundane enough for me, how about 40 years at work where there are more responsibilitities and duties and where things become harder. I just sometimes think I can’

So I am 14 years old and this is me idk way to think.
Back In July I joined my high school freshman football team. Ididny really choose it but my dad did. When school started in august I quit it because football was not really my decision and I was already in another school activity that I enjoyed.
So to punish me my mom took my ps3 and 2,500 dollars worth if electronics. The school activity was robotics. Now near Xmas I want to ask for a XBox 360 but I’m afraid they will bash and yell at me. Everyday they bring up what a fool and what a loser, retard, idiot I am only because u quit because u was already affiliated with an activity. Also I live video games and breath it but I know how to get off and do other things. Plus my mom works for Microsoft so she can get a 75% discount at everything.
Plz explain my parents and why they do this crap.
U really have no clue

i feel like crying during movies. any movie. any movie because there’s always a couple, or someone who finds love. but movie’s aren’t the main problem, i guess.
i cry because i’m lonely.
i don’t care if i’m fifteen and i have ‘my entire life’ to find someone, i’m not even looking for a soul-mate. i’m looking for someone to make me happy. even if it’s just for a little while. even if i have to deal with feelings afterwards.
some will say, ‘get a hobby’. i guess once upon a time i had a niche. i was an artist, and i was damn good too. but i fell out of creativity, and every time i try to pick it up again it never sticks. now.. now i sit in my room watching the shopping network and cartoons, occupying my time. i feel like such a loser because i’m just wasting my time. i hate summer break, because at least school kept me busy.
i don’t even have a best friend. they don’t need me, my friends aren’t exactly pivotal to my life either. i could live without my casual friends. i just.. all i want is to be happy.

This is pure friendship between two friends, don’t mis understand anything. I just want to know or guess about what really happened.
I made friend with someone I have a lot in common with.
– friendly
– sensitive
– shy
– smart
– quick thinker
– independent
– caring
– have a traditional family
– influence in chinese
– have strict parents
– he doesn’t get along with his dad while I’m not with my mom and for almost the same reason.
– like the same type of music and movies
– share secrets like masturbate and other personal things (most asian doesn’t do that.)
and a lot more…
Everything was fine for the past 2years, but it all changed when he begun to making new friends.
His new is fine, except that they sort of his followers which I’m not. My friend is better than me in Math, Physic, Chemistry but not because he smarter, it’s just he more determinate to study than me,and I’m lazy. that’s why when he calls every friend to open a study club, I decided not to go.
– I don’t like his friends.
– Even without his tutoring, I’m doing just fine with school work.
That’s when he begun to get really close to them. I don’t really mind though, he’s not my girlfriend, he’s not my boyfriend, there’s no reason that he can’t hang out with other people and I told him that in person.
I never really know really happened, all I know is that I hate his friends more and more because, they know that I’m very close to him, so in front of him, they treat me like a long time best friend, they just talk to me without making sense but when he’s not around, his friends are barely talk to me even when I ask them something, the way they look at me is like I’m some sort of a loser which I don’t understand because, I’m as rich as my best friend and we both richer than anyone in our class, maybe even in our whole school, and I’m good looking, smarter than any of them.
One day, I when to the suppermarket and saw my best friend hang out with his new friends, he saw me, which I saw him too. So I hurried home right away, I was angried at him, that’s because a moment ago, I called to ask him to goes with me to buy some new Movies but he said that he sick and had to stay at home but instead he went to the same market with his friend cohort. About 20 minutes later, he called, I know that he knows that I was angry, what he was talking on the phone doesn’t make any sense, it was school, it was this, that… i can’t really understand any of it but I know it’s because he know he did wrong and had nothing to say, he just saying other things, maybe he was just trying to detect if I was angry at him or not. Ever since then, I sort of distance myself from him, he called, I don’t pick up, sometime I do if I was close to the phone, but I never called back if there were his miscalled, I just told him that my phone is out of money. At school, the table, is for 2 person but can be use for 3, I sat with him and his other best friend from childhood, but lucky or not, someone was transfer to other class, I went to sit in that table, using an excuse as the table was empty. He realize that i was really angry at him and without knowing what to do, he called my dad and have my dad call to me to talk for him. I was really surprised at the time, he never know my dad, and he dare to call, wonder where he got my dad’s number? After than everything was fine again, that’s also when he knows that I really hate his friends.
Later, he had to goes to America to study, he throwing a going away party without invite me, when I found out, I kind of really stay far from him more by write an e-mail to him;
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He didn’t reply back, but e-mail that he had returned for a short visit and want to meet me, I said no to him. Now he comes back again for his birthday celebration, I ask who he was celebrated with, he said, it only his family members but before that, I called his brother and ask about this too and he said, he celebrated it with him and his other 3 best friend at home, so my friend lied to me again. But this time, he will visit me, and as speaking of it, it is tomorrow.
So what do you think? how should i behave? what should I do? What should I talk about?
Should I see him off this time??? Because of what