I hate my child hood. Even as a child I hated all people and took their presence as a threat and an impedition. I have this unreal loathing towards my own existence and I don’t feel like I should be alive. I even felt this when I was about the age of 2, and I found out recently that I’m classified as a genius. Although, for some strange reason, I feel like I was never loved when I was young; yet my family showed unconditional love for me. I still can’t stand people and I seem to have “Schizoid Personality Disorder”. Again, I can’t get around to discovering strange mental issues I have, because the internet is so “chalked with cake”. Does anybody on the ‘inter-webs’ have any insight unto what is the cause of this hatred towards the idiocy of people and the [I REALLY DON’T WANT TO SOUND LIKE A DICK BUT I HAVE NO OTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN IT] exceptional intelligence I have. I repeat: I have no reason to hate people, I have no reason to be smart, and just simply NO reason to have the personality that I do! Again, HOW on EARTH can somebody develop a mind that wasn’t developed from their CHILDHOOD?
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Why Do I Feel And Felt Cold And Neglected As A Child, Yet I Was Treated With Undeniable Love And Empathy?
Posted on May 20, 2013.
People who are exceptionally intelligent have a hard time relating to “normal” people. In fact, a good predictor of whether two people will get divorced or not is how close in IQ they are. People with more than a 30 point IQ difference are 85% more likely to get divorced than couples with IQs that are close together.
If you have felt this way since childhood, it could be that you don’t feel like you fit in, which in turn causes frustration and anger. The fact you were loved has nothing to do with your anger. It may be you didn’t have patience for people who take longer to come to the same conclusions you did, when there were “older” “wiser” or whatever. There are lots of studies showing that the more intelligent someone is, the more lonely life becomes, because there are fewer people that you can relate to and who can relate to you.
In order to combat this, you may consider getting involved in MENSA, affiliating with people who have advanced degrees (e.g. MDs, PhDs, etc.) as your social circle.
maybe you were not treated with as much empathy as you think you were